I’m sorry for the days that I forgot that you were important to me. I’m sorry for the moments we shared that passed through like a buzzing bee…when at the time they were intense, it seemed…. but then disappeared as if they never did exist.
I never forgot how much you did love me then, or now, and even later…and even we you are gone, or I am gone….or however life seems to turn out in the end.
There were countless times that you could have given up on me, for decisions or what I wanted to become. You didn’t, you shouted to me to remember where I came from…and I remembered…many years later…remember the time I asked you for a favor, and you never wavered…not never.
Remember the time that I pretended that I didn’t need you anymore….but when the calls came flooding in at 4am….you told me then by your voice…that I still did….and do…this much still lives true.
There was then a day that came, that I would have to wear your shoes…and be someone like you…with my own…. in a situation very dark and cold….with unknowns…you told me I was not alone.
When I wasn’t ready to take on such a job…to be a mom…as a young girl…still with life to explore…still wanting more…for myself and not for someone else that would take it all.
And the mistakes that I made, I don’t regret, for one bit, because everyone is allowed to be wrong….to write your own lyrics to your personal song….in this crazy thing called life.
Because you learn the mistakes have built who you are, not where you felt you should belong…from guidance of a mother’s love that is strong.
As I live today and yesterday and tomorrow as a mom myself….to three beings of beauty, life and dreams…molding into their own selves… I, myself, continue to feel a love I’ve never felt….
….The same love you’ve had for me, the same you have for my brother, one that is never lost completely….even when life takes a toll, or changes the road….I know it’s still there….with all of your heart…and mine….no matter where things grow to be…..know that this love that will never die.