Uplifting and comical…a look at my life, motherhood and the circus that goes with it

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One time I was shoved against a wall with his hands around my throat…like it was a fucking joke. …

One time my shin got kicked in because I didnt’ do his hair well, so it caused a fight….

One time when I was 16, I was shoved down on a driveway and, I thought,..hey , this isn’t right.

One time when I was 24, I met a guy, he wrote, so I thought he was mature…5 years and two kids later I kicked him out the door.

One time when I was 22, I sat next to a man in a courtroom, accused…of raping a girl he said he never knew….never believed it could be true….

One time I believed that if I gave in, regardless of sin, left with nothing but skin, that I would be his…

One time I was called a whore, a slut and a cunt….just a good fuck.

One time a loaded gun sat in my home, that I didn’t know, until it was put to my ear like a phone.

One time drugs were more important to someone that me, I begged a pleaded for change, He didn’t, he needed his addiction to feed.

One time I went out to a bar, left bleeding and crying…fleeting, gone, only left with a scar.

One time my pillow was put on the floor beside the bed, you bitch, you skank, you deserve this…he said.

One time I went down on my knees, screaming for mercy, to a man that refused to undoubt my worry…and left…

One day I felt broken…alone, with nothing of my own, except a toddler, a baby and my love for them untorn.

One day I wasn’t sure how to rise, after the pain of demise…in me would be where the answer would lie.

Repeating bad choices in a battle of forces to ignore what I deserve…backing down from the fight and losing sight, that I could possibly want more…

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One time years later, I met a man who said I was beautiful……he said I deserved to be free…he said he loved me…and this time, is when , I believed

so…

I married him.

(Thank you Tom for giving me the confidence and love for myself to be able to live the life we all deserve. I love you). 

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